Venting...
As I've mentioned on here a few times, we are under a tremendous amount of pressure right now. All of it because of choices we've made. We are behind in our work because of our trip to Paris. Maintaining our client relationships and keeping our promises are vital to the success of our business, so in between all the stuff that comes with our current life plan (the move etc.) we have to focus on keeping our business afloat. We both work hard, but it's no easy task.
It's a delicate balancing act for all involved. Maintaining our marriage, friendships, financial solvency, and our mental/emotional well being takes a lot of work and energy. Sometimes I fail miserably in one quadrant or several. It's a learning process and an arduous one at that.
Today I feel that I've failed, and that others have failed me. There is a part of me that wishes it was like back in the AF days...People disappoint, people leave, people move on, and you just surgically remove them from your daily life. Swift, clean, and precise. It's easier in a lot of ways than acknowledging that they matter, that you're invested and you care. But, that isn't the way it should be. Your friends disappoint you sometimes, and you disappoint them. I guess we're just supposed to swallow the disappointments and go on. Expect people to be as unfailing as you are. You fall and stumble, and so do they.
It's an imperfect world and it will always be. As my sister-in-law says..."The fair doesn't come until September."
It's a delicate balancing act for all involved. Maintaining our marriage, friendships, financial solvency, and our mental/emotional well being takes a lot of work and energy. Sometimes I fail miserably in one quadrant or several. It's a learning process and an arduous one at that.
Today I feel that I've failed, and that others have failed me. There is a part of me that wishes it was like back in the AF days...People disappoint, people leave, people move on, and you just surgically remove them from your daily life. Swift, clean, and precise. It's easier in a lot of ways than acknowledging that they matter, that you're invested and you care. But, that isn't the way it should be. Your friends disappoint you sometimes, and you disappoint them. I guess we're just supposed to swallow the disappointments and go on. Expect people to be as unfailing as you are. You fall and stumble, and so do they.
It's an imperfect world and it will always be. As my sister-in-law says..."The fair doesn't come until September."
posted by Saucy Britches at
6/19/2008 08:38:00 AM
3 Comments:
I know how you feel strings pulling you in a million directions, all vie-ing for your undivided attention. Take comfort in knowing that 1). there is someone out there who empathizes 2). you'll always kick ass as Barbarella and 3). as often as friends stumble, they rise to the occasion and give life a reprieve.
I hope you guys get the house! It looks great. We are enjoying our last day in Sardinia, it is amazingly beautiful, I'll upload photos once we get to Turkey.
P.S. This is Echo, not Utku
hang in there! i have been having a week like that. we all definitely stumble. it's the picking ourselves up and forgiving others that really counts.
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